A mystery that never ceases to amaze and astound. One ponders the possibilities filled with loops, swoops and pulls in directions unknown and ever-changing.
Finding all the pieces…
Try as I might, attempting to pinpoint all the pieces in the puzzle of life is exhausting. Bits ‘n pieces are hiding all throughout. Some plainly in vision, while others remain tucked deep away where eyes have not seen and ears have not heard. Whether it’s the smallest of your hearts desires or the grandest of life’s adventures each serves a purpose, helping to get you to where you are destined to be in life.
The kicker of the whole thing is that where you think you should be or where you want to be may not necessarily be in your life’s plan. While you have wants, desires and needs and can control some things in life, the greater scheme of things is not in your control. How you handle and react to all that is thrown your way is something you have control over. Remembering that is a challenge for me.
Sometimes I find myself questioning things and wondering what makes people act and react the way they do. It can be quite perplexing at times…
“Why do bad things happen to good people?”
“Why is it so easy for people to be dishonest?”
“Why would a person be brought into my life only to be taken away for one reason or another?”
“How can a person say meaningful things to you one minute, then act like you don’t exist the next?”
Have I come up with answers to any of these questions? No, not even close actually. Guess I’ll be left to wonder.
Another aspect is deciphering where you want to be in life versus where you should be. Deciding which road to take and contemplating paths you’ve already taken. I know for a fact that one decision I made 9 years ago COMPLETELY and TOTALLY changed the path of my life. Was it a path for the better? Honestly, if I could make that choice again, I would ave chosen differently… no doubt about it at all. But the long and short of it is that some good things did happen since I made that choice 9 years ago, some of which probably wouldn’t have happened had I not made that decision. Unfortunately though, I’m left with a much more negative taste in my mouth regarding taking that path and what subsequently followed over the course of these 9 years.
I’m at a point in my life where trying to find the pieces and putting them together is quite difficult. Which pieces are the right ones to focus on? Which path should I chose? Things that were once promising are now questionable…leading me to think of different possibilities and options for the future.
All I know right now, it that I am puzzled by the puzzle. I’m not going to quit trying to figure what’s what and where each piece goes… I just need not to let it consume me. Each piece will fall into place on its own at the guidance out of my control. It’s in Someone else’s hands.