Life is quite an adventure isn’t it?!
Some days it is a smooth sailing ride while others are up and down and all around crazy.
Writing for me has been the perfect way to document both sorts of days and every other kind in between. From milestones to heartaches to celebrations and the mundane everyday goings on, writing it out just helps…helps me to deal; helps me to remember. Some times I blog once a week; sometimes it’s twice a week; there was a time where I was posting each and every day and also a time where I only did one or two posts in an entire month.
Regardless of the frequency, I’ve shared my stories, my thoughts, my nonsense and my opinions… I’ve babbled on about my loves in the music world just as much as my loves in my family… I’ve sought encouragement and vented anger… I’ve jumped up and down in excitement in sharing some occasions with you as well. It is quite a fun ride… even if I include the crummy days, because lets face it… I am here.
With all that has gone on recently such as welcoming my newest nephew into the world, attending several concerts, losing my job, breaking the nicotine habit and spending time with friends and family I find myself reflecting on all avenues of my life thus far and the road ahead which is somewhat unknown.
Have you ever wondered what it would be like to be an outside observer in your own life? To kinda step out of your skin and take watch of your world around you.
Have you ever sat back and looked over decisions you’ve made and wish that you could change the outcome? Or have you ever revisited a situation in your past that you once felt VERY strongly about and find that years later your opinion on the matter is completely opposite than your original stance was?
Those questions my friends really make me think…
It is good to revisit situations and circumstances from the past and reflect on them retrospectively; taking from each pieces and tidbits of lessons learned. Yes, the past is the past but there is ALWAYS an opportunity to learn from the past in hopes of continual growth in the future. AND there are somethings that are just better off being left in the past…
The best I can relate it is to Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland and Through the Looking Glass…
Alice went on a pretty incredible unknown adventure. Was she scared? unsure? a bit confused, puzzled and perplexed? Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes. BUT there were signs and clues along the way. She took a leap of faith and followed those hints, unsure of where they’d lead her. It was an incredible journey. I find myself really relating to Alice these days.
So now, I sit here “looking through the glass” of my adventures so far; Adventures that have been documented through my writings here and writings I have not yet shared with you; some of which are from 10 or more years ago.
I don’t fully believe the adage, “hind sight is 20/20.” As with each bump or blessing that occurs I am truly beginning to believe that EVERYTHING in life really DOES happen for a reason, even if it is not immediately in sight. Looking back on the past (places, events and people) I still don’t have clear outlooks on many situations. I’ve come to the realization as my 33rd birthday approaches next Thursday that it’s okay NOT to understand… It’s okay to NOT know the answers. THAT is the journey
Looking through the glass on the different “versions” of me that have emerged throughout the years, made visible through my writing is showing me more about myself than I thought it would. THROUGH the looking-glass I can appreciate ALL that has occurred and all that has changed.
I am the same person as I was some 15 years ago when I started writing… perhaps though; I am older, I am getting healthier, I am a bit more seasoned, a bit wiser, and a whole lot stronger.
I am a daughter, sister, aunt, granddaughter, cousin, friend… I am a writer, crafter, music-lover looking for the right path to take… more accurately when to take that leap of faith.
In the meantime, I’ll continue taking glimpses through the looking-glass and continue on my own little nonsensical path until I find where ever it is I am meant to be.
Have you taken a glimpse lately?!