…NEVER forget…

September 11, 2011…10 years later…

TODAY…

As many others have commented and contemplated upon the tragic events that occurred in New York City, Pennsylvania and the Pentagon, I have found myself  thinking of nothing but the same today.  It’s a hard feeling to shake.  The utter shock and disbelief that our country, our FREE country could be subjected to such an outrageous and devastating tragedy still reigns true till this day, 10 years after first hearing the news.  The hows and whys that were muttered by millions replay in my head as I begin to think of what my eyes stared at on the television and ears heard on the radio stations.  I, among others, stood in disbelief as each report broke over the sound waves. The trademark skyline, no longer pictures the World Trade Center… The world changed that day…Everything
just stopped.

For me, not much has changed in 10 years.  The shock and disbelief still linger on, but are intermingled with sadness, anger and pride in the present day.

After watching several documentaries in recent days and reading reports and articles, I am taken right back to that initial moment 10 years ago when the world STOPPED…   Overflowing with emotion, I sit and watch and relive the horrific scenes and emotions.  Still seemingly fresh wounds ever after time has transpired since the actual events occurred.  Here are my thoughts and tidbits about the day’s happenings on September 11, 2001 as well as my thoughts today.

Never Forget

HOW could this happen????

I still find myself asking this question.  How could something so devastating occur…How can so many people have lost their lives without a chance of escaping…How so many individuals gave of their own lives so freely while trying to save those trapped, hurt and afraid.

The fear that took over me, was something I had never experienced previously.  Staring at the images on the television have not gotten any easier.  As I sit here watching all of the coverage today, the chills down my spine and tears down my cheeks are as fresh and real as they were in 2001.  The emotional response that my body endured 10 years ago is still ever-present in today’s thoughts and experiences.  I was fortunate to not have any loved ones directly involved in the attacks or collapses or rescue efforts…yet I was still affected so strongly.  The outpouring of emotions I went through during those initial moments were inexplicable.  We as a Nation, were in shock..disbelief…angered…mourning… No matter where you were or who you were, you stopped what you were doing and watched, listened, cried and prayed…

…Sadness…

The sadness I experienced in 2001 is the much the same as the sadness I experienced today.  The sheer fact that the event occurred and that lives were lost saddens me.  The loss of so many lives saddens me still.  Sadness for many reasons… lives of innocent people were lost that day; lives of children, parents, firefighters, policemen, rescue personnel.  People were minding their own, going about their day-to-day when their world stopped and ended without them even so much as getting the opportunity to say good-bye or defend themselves.  Their lives were taken by sick, tormented individuals.

I think my sadness lies deepest with the families that were torn apart by the ruthless actions the terrorists carried out.  Children losing a parent… Unborn children having lost a parent… Wives losing husbands… Husbands losing wives… Parents losing children… SO many lives ended… THE WORLD JUST STOPPED on 9/11.  Eventually, many of us started to “pick up the pieces” and get our emotions in check, resuming our normal, day-to-day routines.  The families directly effected by that days events would never be the same.  Their normal, day – to – day just got ripped right out from under them.  The healing process is a long and hard road that so many had to embark upon much too soon…

…ANGER…

The fact that a group of individuals could be so ruthless as to carry out the events that occurred, sickens me beyond belief.  I hold such anger that there are such disturbed, evil individuals walking the same planet as me.  Anger that so many lives were lost, loves lost, breaths stopped.

So many lives were changed without warning, without care that I just simply get angry.  There is no further explanation I can provide.  I have such disdain for those whom orchestrated and carried out the terrorist attacks that occurred on 9.11.01.

…Pride…

One nation, indivisible…If ever there was anything good to occur out of these attacks this would be it.  Americans took pride in our country.  We banded together, stood strong and supported each other.  We came together to aid those directly affected by loss or injury.  We took pride in ourselves, in our rescue personnel. Words of encouragement were shared, patriotism abounded immediately.  Flags flying, hymns blaring.  Sadly it took something so tragic to help us exhibit such pride in our nation so freely.  Americans spoke out of their pride.  Americans stood behind each other.  We became ONE NATION in support of all those lives lost and loved.

I take pride in the fact that so many individuals displayed such heroic actions on that day and coming days afterwards.  The individuals aboard the hijacked flight that crashed near Somerset, PA come to mind first when thinking of heroic actions of that day. Their strength and endurance, ambition and selflessness amazed me.  The rescue personnel that so freely risked their lives or gave their lives during the rescue efforts at Ground Zero,  are the epitome of heroes.

TEN years ago….

WHERE I WAS and WHAT I was doing…

Seems like it was centuries ago at times…then again it seems like it was just yesterday.  I was 23 years old.  Had already graduated from college and was enjoying my job at Kennywood.  I was part of a group that worked at the Amusement Park in the offseason, wrapping things up for the current season and getting things situated for the following season.  We did odds and ends such as taking inventory, tagging merchandise, and restocking items.

One seemingly ordinary day, us girls were up in the gift shop in Lost Kennywood doing inventory.  One of my friends was upstairs folding shirts, another counting something else.  I was sitting outside, on a milk crate, counting key chains.  They looked like bouncy balls, were yellow and had the trademark Kennywood arrow on them.  The exact item bares no significance to the days events, I just find it interesting that I can remember those details of something that occurred 10 years ago and I can’t remember if I turned my flat-iron off when I leave for work on a daily basis these days, but that’s neither here nor there.

The radio was blasting…given the time of day, had we been in the warehouse, Howard Stern would have been on.  But I can almost guarantee that since it was just us girls in the gift shop, we probably had B94 on.  My friend, folding shirts upstairs yelled down that something happened in New York…we didn’t think much of it, but as she continued to listen and share and more reports kept coming over the radio, our world just STOPPED.

…TODAY…

Today I am reminded of how lucky I am to be a citizen of this great nation.  Albeit a nation that has seen such horrific tragedy, our nation came together on that day.  We came together in support, strength and prayer.  I continue to keep those whose lives were lost close to my heart, their families in my prayers.  I continue to pray for those who are haunted by their memories of that day. The heroes who risk their lives everyday to keep us safe will forever be honored.

  I am thankful for those who defend our country so that I can maintain the freedoms that make our country the land of the free and the home of the brave.

Our world stopped 10 years ago…we continue on.  Honor those who defend us.  Remember those who died for us.  Cherish those with us.

How were you affected?  Where were you at that very moment???

Advertisements

4 thoughts on “…NEVER forget…

  1. Well said Megan and thanks for sharing your memory and feelings. I was at home, waiting to start Uni and watched it unfold on TV. So surreal even to me now. I don’t think we’ll ever forget or should ever forget.

What are you thinking?

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s