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Procrastination Station

I always meet deadlines.  Honestly I think I thrive on deadlines. 

An uninformed bystander would be apt to think I have a systematic, methodical plan established, detailing a rigid schedule of individual tasks to be completed to successfully meet the deadline and overall end goal.

I’d like to say that is true.

But, my momma taught me not to lie.

Truth be told this girl is a procrastinator.  Always have been and more than likely always will be.
From cramming for exams in high school and college to drafting research manuscripts for grad school to pretty much all my crafty adventures to brushing my teeth just as I am about to be walking out the door to getting my car inspected during the last week of the month it’s due.  (OK, actually I take the last one back … my car was actually inspected a whole month early this year! Once in a life time occurance, I can assure you. )

Quite honestly, some of my aboslute BEST work has been completed just minutes before the time is to run out. Some of the best (and longest) papers I’ve ever written were products of literally no sleep for almost 40 hours and taken directly from the printer to be handed to a professor while the paper was still warm. A maid of honor speech that I stayed up until 3 AM writing the night before the wedding only to he thrown out and a new one uttered on the fly in cue with the DJ’s go ahead. Wedding invitations made through the wee hours of the morning on the day the bride is expecting them in her hands.

This blog post for example, has been nearly finished for quite some time… I just needed to finish it. A whole week later I am finally getting to it.

Don’t let this scare you from asking me to take on a project for you. Just ask any one… I’ll get the job done, one way or another in due time.

Sure, I’ll be stressed … more than likely I’ll get frustrated through the process.

Nonetheless, I enjoy the process. I suppose I enjoy working down to the wire… I enjoy finally seeing a product through to the end … celebrating it’s completion. Not now though…

I’ll celebrate later … after I brush my teeth just before I walk out the door. 😉

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Tides Of Change…

365 days ago today, I wrote of Expectations.  Expectations of myself and for myself.  Expectations of others and for life.  Expectations of the year to come and for all that I would be presented with.  If you’ve not read it, please take a minute to do so. It is still one of my favorite posts to date, written well before I had many readers.

When I wrote that post on expectations on December 31st of 2010, I had not a clue as to what the year would hold for me.

365 days.  525, 600 minutes.

So much can change.

So much can happen.

And believe me… it did.

Since then…. I became an aunt for the 6th time in July when we welcomed Jimmer to the world.

I just can't get enough of those cheeks!!!

 

I went to 7 concerts and wrote about some of them here…

1.) Jason Myles Goss2.) Iron & Wine3.) The Avett Brothers4.) Kenny Chesney & Zac Brown Band, 5.) NKOTBSB6.) Scott Blasey7.) Incubus

 

I lost my job and got a new job that is COMPLETELY outside of my “chosen” field…

I tried online dating and swore it off indefinitely…

I tried a bunch of new recipes and started running again… I’ve had cereal for dinner and not run as much…

I’ve written lots and taken breaks…  I’ve done a ton and nothing too.

This year has been a complete whirlwind of excitement and change… triumphs and letdowns…

Goal setting and achievements… fresh starts and lots of change.

Time spent with this adorable face….

"I want it!" All P-Dub wanted all night was a pool ball... the boy gets what he wants.

 

And getting to watch this kid grown up….

B-Shane playing Uncle Chuck's guitar

Wouldn’t trade a second… except maybe for more time to get to spend with the 5 nephews and 1 niece…

But what never ceases to amaze me is the fact that I never stop learning.  I continue to grow and change with each let down… I grow further and change more with every triumph.

I’ve become stronger with every challenge that has faced me.  Momentarily I may have been weakened by those struggles presented, I try to come out kicking and screaming when all else fails and usually come out on top.

Looking back on these 365 days, I have met some amazingly phenomenal people… I’ve lost some that I thought were friends…. I’ve reconnected with some I haven’t seen in years.

I’ve got to spend time with those I love and who matter most.  I’ve gotten to know and love so many people so much better through talking, writing, chatting, sharing of music, sharing of thoughts…

I’ve had days where I felt completely defeated only to wake up the next feeling excited and rejuvenated.

Quite honestly even with the bumps and bridges… the haves and the have-nots… the what is’ and the what if’s…  I wouldn’t trade a single moment of these 365 days.  Not one minute of the 525,600 moments I was given will be tossed aside.

As the new year once again awaits me I am left to wonder what exactly the universe has in store…

The curve balls keep on coming having gone to the ER the other night… things aren’t all peachy in the “health department” but I’ll spare ya all the details… all I can do is roll with the punches…

I’m going to do what I can with what I have… I’m going to continue to be thankful for those I have and those I can count on…  Be thankful I HAVE insurance and it’s gonna cover everything. 🙂  Woo hoo!

What I am NOT going to do is come up with a list of resolutions… I’ve tried it, I’ve never stuck to ’em.  I’ve made lists and wishes and promises.  I’ve resolved to do this and do that and forget what the this and that are before the 10th of January.

What I am going to do each and every day of this coming year is something we should all do each and every day…

I am letting go of the weights that held me down for far too long and chose instead to be grateful for the good given in each moment of every day.  That’s not an easy thing to do, but I am certainly going to give it a try…

Happy new year to you my loves… May you all celebrate safely and enjoy all that you have and all those you love.

 

xoxo

 

 

The Slacker’s Edition of Five Question Friday!

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So apparently I am not good at actually posting a Five Question Friday post on Friday…. This is the 2nd week in a row I am posting it on Saturday.

Therefore we have the Slacker’s Edition on Saturday… Perhaps, I’ll start a trend. 😉

1. Do you have a go to song that always puts you in a good mood?
 I’ve got a coupla favorites that do the trick… Well actually most anything I listen to gives me a quick pick me up.  The music I listen to when I am happy is the same I listen to when I’m sad, mad, angry, excited, etc.  That’s the beautiful thing about music for me; it’s got the power to lift me up or keep me up no matter the day or circumstance.

Here’s 3 that are very different, in very different genres that do the trick….


2. Are you a real Christmas tree kinda person or do you go with a real fake one?
I am a faker all the way… I’m allergic to trees.  No, seriously, I am.  PLUS I am the HUGEST (love making up my own words 😉  ) fan of Christmas and usually leave my decorations up through January and occasionally into February.  I LOVE all things Christmas:  music, decorations, buying gifts, making gifts, the food, time with family.  ABSOLUTELY LOVE IT ALL!!!!!

One of my trees...


3. What are you thankful for?
I am so incredibly thankful so very many things… But most especially that as of yesterday, I am OFFICIALLY a full-time member of the working force again.  It’s been a long five months, but hard work & stepping ENTIRELY outside of my comfort zone has landed me a pretty amazing and awesome experience in a new field.

4. Which fashion fad from the past do you wish you could wear today?
Hmmmmm…. that is tricky!!!  When talking past fashion fads I automatically remember all the ones I DON’T wanna see come back.  Like pegged jeans.  And stirrup pants.  Can you believe I have seen them in stores?!?!?  Who wants to wear those again… not me!!!  I think the absolute WORST fad that could come back would be body suits.  Do you remember those???? Why as an adult would you wanna wear a onesie?  Uncomfortable and unflattering.
But, alas that is not the question at hand… I love wide legged jeans… they most definitely need to make a come back as opposed to all this skinny jean and jegging nonsense.
5. Do you wait until the “low fuel” light comes on before you fill up the gas tank?
More often than not, yes I do.  It drives my mom CRAZY!  gas is so stinking expensive!  It is sad that I get excited to see that gas is down to $3.39 a gallon… When I started driving it was less than a dollar!  Damn, that makes me feel old!!!!
Well my friends… It’s your turn…
Be a slacker like me, do the slacker’s edition of 5QF…. you know you wanna!
Post your link in the comments section below!
 Have a great weekend my loves!  xoxoxo

 

Trick or Treat!!! Good things happen to those who wait!

It was a yucky and cold rainy night for trick or treating with the nephews but nice to spend time with the adorable faces!

AND I got some good news today…  Just proof that good things really do happen to those that wait!  Patience pays off…  Not to say that I haven’t stressed and fretted while waiting but now I can breathe a wee little bit easier. 🙂

Typically I’m not a big fan of Mondays AT ALL but… today takes the cake of being the absolute BEST Monday I can even remember.

So if you’re wondering or waiting or trying to figure things out for yourself… be patient.

Enjoy all the little things like those adorable little faces up above.

Your time will come.  You don’t know when.  You don’t know how.  But, it will…

Organized chaos?!?!

Adventures in crafty land have been pretty busy…

My living room looks a bit as if Michael’s, Jo-Ann’s and Pat Catans all came for a visit and threw up on the floor.

This is after I "straightened" up in between projects. 🙂

I wasn’t kidding!

A donation box for the Kristy Lasch Miracle Foundation, a guest book for one of my girlie’s weddings and a gift for another one of my girlie’s weddings are my most recent bigger projects.  I’ve been buried among the crafting rubble while also having had pieces glued to myself including my fingers being glued together.  I.KID.YOU.NOT.

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I also participated in my 5th or 6th craft show this year (I can’t remember!) on Saturday.  It was a last-minute opportunity given to me by a former co-worker who offered up one of her tables to me.

Unfortunately it was another dud for me….  Seriously re-evaluating the whole craft show circuit thing.  I have two more slated for this year… The one in December is going to be the deal breaker for me.  If I sink, I’ll be going into “early retirement” from doing craft shows. 😉  If I swim, that will more than likely be the only show I do from here on out.

I’m thinking my focus needs to move to the personalized/customized/special order side of things.  Not sure yet, but thinking that’s my best bet.  All I do know is that I’m not ready to call it quits in crafty land just yet.  🙂

Until then, I can still be found in my “organized” corner of chaos.

My stuff makes great Christmas gifts…..  Just sayin’. 😉

I’ve come to realize …

I have borrowed this from my dear friend and kindred spirit, Donna,  at The Redneck Princess

I’ve come to realize (A journey into self-awareness)
Saturday October 14 2011

1. I’ve come to realize that my chest size…
Fluctuates in direct relation to weight gain or loss… Anyway you look at it though, lets just say I’m blessed! 😉

2. I’ve come to realize that my job…
Is new, exciting, unexpected AND it pays the bills.

3. I’ve come to realize that when I’m driving…
My window is ALWAYS open, even in the dead middle of winter with the music blasting, me singing like a rock star and perhaps a bit of seat dancing. 🙂

4. I’ve come to realize that I need…
To relax and not stress so I can enjoy the little things a bit more often.

5. I’ve come to realize that I have lost….
My tendency to sit back and take crap from people.  Speaking up and standing up for myself is very empowering.

6. I’ve come to realize that I hate it when…
People aren’t who they say they are or who you think they are.

7. I’ve come to realize that if I’m drunk…
it’s a rare occasion and I can’t hang like I used to.

8. I’ve come to realize that money…
is the root of all evil.  No matter how much a person has, it is never enough.

9. I’ve come to realize that certain people….
WILL.NEVER.CHANGE and WILL.NEVER.GROW.UP.

10. I’ve come to realize that I’ll always …

Give a person the benefit of the doubt until proven not worthy.

11. I’ve come to realize that my sibling(s)…
Are phenomenal in their own right each possessing qualities I admire.

12. I’ve come to realize that my mom…
Is by far the strongest & most determined woman I know. She’s simply amazing.

13. I’ve come to realize that my cell phone…
Is my lifeline. Can’t live without it; sad, I know.

14. I’ve come to realize that last night before I went to sleep…
I was cranky & tired but got a pick-me-up from someone, which un-crankified me.

15. I’ve come to realize that when I woke up this morning…
I was REALLY tired & perhaps I am a wimp & again can’t quite hang like I used to. Two near all-nighters in one week are not good for this gal.

16. I’ve come to realize that right now I am thinking…
That I love seeing the sun shining. 🙂

17. I’ve come to realize that my dad….
Is a really hard worker & always has been.  Started young and hasn’t stopped since.

18. I’ve come to realize that when I get on Facebook…
I need to complain less and share more of my positive moments. OR just not get on there as much at all!

19. I’ve come to realize that today…
didn’t go quite as well as I’d have liked so far.  The craft show was another bust.  Giving it two more tries and may call an early retirement. 😉

20. I’ve come to realize that tonight…
is going to be interesting!  Watching the 3 month old and 10-year-old nephews over night.  Say some prayers that the little guy is a happy camper and not a cranky bugger!

21. I’ve come to realize that tomorrow…
is Sunday, which isn’t my favorite day of the week.

22. I’ve come to realize that I really want to…
be able to make a serious go of my crafty business.

23. I’ve come to realize that the person who is most likely to re-post this is…
Maybe Tink or Vix. 🙂

24. I’ve come to realize that life…
is what you make of it and extremely unpredictable.  Forrest Gump said it best…. My momma always said, “Life was like a box of chocolates. You never know what you’re gonna get.”

25. I’ve come to realize that this weekend…
has been incredibly busy!!!

26. I’ve come to realize the best music to listen to when I am upset…
is the same music I listen to when I am happy!

27. I’ve come to realize that my friends…
are absolutely Ah-maz-ing…..  Couldn’t ask for better.  Love them all for the same reasons while each have something special that makes me adore them all the more.

28. I’ve come to realize that this year…
has been challenging but I’m stronger, wiser and much more determined than I ever thought possible.  “Damn the man!” Don’t let ’em get ya down.  *For the record not speaking of a man here, just people in general.

29. I’ve come to realize that my ex…
in speaking of the most recent…. MAKES NO SENSE.

30. I’ve come to realize that maybe I should….
have run in the Race for Pace 5K today instead of doing the craft show.

31. I’ve come to realize that I love…
my life, even though it’s not perfect, it’s mine.

32. I’ve come to realize that I don’t understand…
why people lie and cheat.  I just don’t get it.

33. I’ve come to realize my past…
is just that, the past and doesn’t determine the path ahead of me.

34. I’ve come to realize that parties…
Need to be held at Donna’s house so I can come for a visit. 😉  (What do ya think?!  lol)

35. I’ve come to realize that I’m totally terrified…
of losing those closest to me.  It’s not an everyday thing, just the reality is you never know when the last time is the last so enjoy every moment!

36. I’ve come to realize that my life…
is a work in progress… just as I am.  I am A-okay with that!

Ok…it’s your turn my loves, fill it out and link back in the comments below 🙂

Happy, happy to your day!!!

Tell us about you, come on!!!

I heard the message loud and clear.

The last couple months have been an absolute roller coaster.

That’s not new news for me to share with you.  If you’ve read my posts, the few and far between that they’ve been since June, you know what I’m talking about.  It’s been trying to say the least… the very least.   For my newer readers, you’ll have to dig back and find the posts to get caught up to speed because quite honestly that road is in my rear view mirror and there’s no looking back.

A couple of weeks ago, while chatting with my sweet friend Carrie she told me some things and gave me a bit to refocus on.  After taking her advice and reflecting,  I finally got the message.  I heard it loud and clear as I booted up my computer and opened up iTunes. The first song that came on when I hit shuffle… “You’ll Be Okay” by Ian Axel…

That was just what I needed to hear.

I’ve finally arrived at a good pit-stop a midst all the detours…

The road has been exhausting!

  • I’ve cried tears that were seemingly endless, but guess what?!  They stopped.
  • I’ve laughed so hard that tears of a much sweeter kind have made repeat appearances.
  • I’ve had more grumpy days and cranky moments that I care to admit but I’ve changed that.  That is something I CAN control.  I still have my cranky moments, don’t get me wrong… but all the grumpy days
  • I’ve listened to music NON-STOP to deal with the tears, the laughs, the grumpiness…
  • I’ve reconnected with some old friends who add to my life and don’t take away from it.
  • I’ve been let down by some I love and THOUGHT I knew well.
  • I’ve been lifted up by many.


I have learned so.incredibly.much.

I’ve learned that it is far less exhausting when you deal with what you can & let go of everything else.

I’ve learned that dwelling correlates to darkness & that I am more of a bright light kinda gal.

I’ve learned that looking at the sunny-side isn’t always easy but it is so much more rewarding.

I’ve learned that change isn’t quite as scary as I once believed.  In fact, I now fully believe that CHANGE IS GOOD.  Change is necessary for growth.  It is completely possible to become too comfortable in a situation… to a point where you can no longer grow as a person.  That my friends is NOT good.  I was there and am EXTREMELY happy that I am no longer.  Like I said, I’m at a good pit-stop. 🙂

I have learned that my time is valuable… no longer will I utilize it on people who don’t respect it and reciprocate.

I’m learning to assume my role as a doorman not a doormat.

This is probably one of the single most important yet difficult stops I’ve encountered.     A friend recently told me that it’s not possible for someone to “get the best of you” after my having just told him that I was grumpy because I let someone “get the best of me.”   It took me a little while to process it but it definitely got me  to thinking…  People can only get from you what you give them.  People who push your buttons, don’t value your time or treat you unfairly don’t deserve your best.  The whole Golden Rule thing comes into play here in my opinion and ends up being one of my greatest attributes and downfalls all in one.  I ALWAYS treat others the way I want to be treated.  The problem is I am let down and hurt by those whom  do not reciprocate.  It’s a whole learning curve I guess. But the truth of the matter is it is becoming much easier for me to shut those people out of my life.

Well, maybe not the hottest, but see the door?!? Find your way out... 😉

Better still, instead of lying down and letting people get the “best” of me by walking all over me I now choose to hold open the door for them as they walk on out, giving them a swift kick if and when needed. 😉

The road is still winding…

Where I end up in 6 months from now, a year, or 10 I have not a clue.

But for right now, I am happy.

I am working.  I am thankful.   I am changing.  I am comfortable.  I am learning…. always learning.

I heard the message loud and clear.